Things are going fairly well with the pregnancy, I am actually feeling really good all things considered. I have heard the third trimester is terrible but so far this is the best I have felt so far. So that is nice.
What is bad then? Our childcare provider fell through. Our part time, inexpensive, close to our house, likable, competent, flexible, too good to be true provider is moving. I have had this unsettled feeling in my gut ever since we found her that it was just too easy and fell into place so well that something must be wrong. Thankfully we have a few months to start the process again, but it makes me realize that this parenting thing is really going to change our lives. Because baby is going to come first- and if we can’t find a good provider than I won’t go back to work. And that is a scary thought to me. And I am realizing that we are going to have to be really flexible and that from here on out I can no longer plan out every minute detail of our lives and expect it to play out that way. Having a baby introduces a lot of unpredictability and I tend to do best when I am in complete control of a situation. You don’t have to tell me that will be out the window in a little less than 7 weeks.
We could use some prayers, good vibes, positive thoughts etc. as we start this again because it pretty much is the most monumental decision that can be made considering the baby. Bigger than car seats and bottles and diapers and all the other decisions I have been agonizing over lately. I can only hope that somehow, someway, it will all fall into place in time.